feelings of sickness

A visual representation of how i felt like

yesterday i was feeling so tired and then it turned to feeling tired plus sick. i had a headache that just wouldn't go away. my back hurt and so i didn't feel like sitting down yet standing was torturous. i was really afraid that i was falling ill. i hoped that was not the case because going to the doctor will mean that i'll be given antibiotics.

I'm not exaggerating but the sight of medicine makes me feel like throwing up

YUCK! i hate medicine. first of all swallowing tablets is nearly impossible. they get stuck in my throat and that's a very scary feeling. i don't know how i got a small throat or something because no one else in my family seems to have this issue. my dad, brother and sister can swallow more than one tab at a go. that to me, is supernatural. i'd like to speak to the manager in charge of throat sizes. WHY DO I HAVE A SMALL ONE?

for me, a Panadol is hard enough. on a good day, it will go down with ease but on some days it's so hard i'd rather crush it and find something to mask the taste. now that's just a Panadol. imagine antibiotics, which you must not chew or crush unless it's okayed by the doc. due to this difficulty, it takes me many minutes to take one. my sister hates the thought of me having a tablet dissolving in my mouth and she gets rather perturbed. "JUST SWALLOW", she says. sorry sister for putting you through this.

A visual representation of my sister watching and waiting for me to swallow a tablet

for the whole time i felt this sick feeling, this song was playing in my head. it's called Hello World by Louie Zong. click and see. i find the voice calming and scary but still calming. i hope you can find some yumness in it.

when i got home i found my small brother watching an animated movie about bees. it's called Maya the Bee. it's about bees vs hornets. i wasn't really concentrating and all i wanted was sleep. so i went to my bed and slept until supper time. now i was scared to eat because i thought i would throw up but i just ate then slept.

i woke up feeling better. my body is still tired but that bad feeling is gone. yay! i'm just glad that i'm not sick because i know my appetite will be gone and most meds need to be taken with food otherwise you'll be so so sick. more sick than you started with. why is this life like this? :'(

This is how life hits you sometimes. but you can still get up yes?

i don't know if this post makes sense haha. bye